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red eye [03 May 2006|06:00am]
[ mood | tired ]

i really dislike Tuesday nights\Wednesday mornings. mainly because ill get little, or in this case, no sleep.
i hate color and design, its fucking annoying and pact full of work. i hate the fact that its at 830 in the fucking morning.
i hate the shitty work that i make in that class, its never good enough for me. i hate the fact that the paints cost a bloody fortune. i hate having to lug around so much shit every time i have to go to class. i hate the fact that i miss one class and i get way behind... i hate the fact the the damn birds out side have been chirping since 330 am, fucking birds.

sigh well at least i only have two more all nighters left before i hopefully i never have to take this fucking class again...
now to shower and go to class...bleh

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look mah no sleep! [29 Mar 2006|04:17am]
[ mood | blah ]

bleh its 4 fn in the fn morning...i have to get up in two hours...some thing tells me im not gonna be sleeping tonight...
first all nighter ive pulled in a while, usually i mange to finish all my shit by 2 maybe 3 am. but not this time, i m not sure why this assignment gave me so much grief. its not to hard of an assignments at all, hell i was kinda eager to started when it was first assigned. i had all of spring break to do it and i didn't, i just couldn't concentrate on it, even today when i knew i had to finish it, i still kept walking away from it to do other things. it just didnt interest me much and for that it suffered alot. it looks like i vomited the paint on to it and then used a dead squire to wipe it... bleh
i think im gonna play me some games now, stupid color and design class, its can kiss my ass.

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IEEE 666! [22 Mar 2006|12:47pm]
[ mood | drained ]

so ive been pulling my hair out over the past 3 days trying to fix or at least figure out why my fire wire ports dont work at all. window recognizes it and list it in the device manager but nothing i plug in to it get recognized. now ive tried two different mother boards, same model and neither of them work. i also have a pci fire wire cad and same thing happens. its it not just on my machine its also happening on my sisters. now on my system its a fresh install of windows so im kinda out of ideas at the moment. I also checked the MSI page to see if they had any bios updates but its seams like i have the most resent one.
any help would be very very very VERY helpful.
everything else on my system works fine its just the fucking fire wire, which i need in order to hook up one of my drives as well as my camcorder. sigh im gonna go lie down and curl up in to a fetal position and cry.

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shes alive! shes alive! muhahahahaha! [17 Mar 2006|07:48am]
yay chii is all up and running!
no problems at all, started up on the first boot with out any issue.
half life 2 looks oh so purdy!
to bad i gots to go to work now...really wana stay home and play some more with my chii

man using dual monitors is really gonna take some getting used to...i digg it tho.
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chii 2.0 [03 Mar 2006|04:30pm]
[ mood | tired ]

building new computer in the next couple of week...ie ordering parts next week and heres what i got so far

AMD Athlond 64 X@ 3800+ manchester
OCZ 2GB (2x1GB) DDR400 RAM
MSI RD480 Neo2-FI mobo
Hiper Type-R 580w power supply
ATI Radeon X1800 512mb
and later a Western Digital Caviar RE2 400GB hard drive

that should be enough for now doncha think? ^_^
i can finally play battlefield 2 at a good frame rate
oh and half life 2 with all the pretty set to high xD

see mouse i almost beat you at having my machine up and running before you and david =p

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not my week [24 Feb 2006|10:59pm]
well shit.
first my mp3 player goes and dies on me and now chii's cpu fall down go big boom.
technology hates me now.
sigh well its only a month or two till i build me my new system.
till then ill just have to keep "borrowing" my sis cpu and ram ^_^
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iDead [23 Feb 2006|01:33pm]
sniff sniff my jukebox is dead.
i am with out portable tunes...poo
stupid hd had to go and die ans stupid cheap soldiering iron for burring my finger.
sigh now i have to look for a new player thats cheap and hopefully over 30 gigs
i shall not buy a pod
i shall not buy a pod
i shall not buy a pod
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[25 Jan 2006|10:15pm]
[ mood | bored ]

i think tv is trying to tell me something, tonight's episode of good eats is on mixing drinks...

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nudes! [05 Dec 2005|10:48pm]
[ mood | bored ]

viva la procrastination!

arg i hate finals, so much work so little time...so much lack of naked people to draw for anatomy final!
lets see 3 rough drafts dues this week, 3 final projects due next week as well as a final test in a class im failing...i have a love/hate relationship with history...i loves to hate me.
hmmm i should probably stop playing halo and get some work done soon....
well half an hour has gonna by and im still not working...
hee hee drunk people playing halo on xbox live are amusing sometimes...
damn the interweb being distracting with its many distractions...
fuck it im going to bed...
fuck i still need to figure out what to do with my anatomy final...shit, correction, fucking shit!

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wanted lever = 4 stars [14 Oct 2005|01:33pm]
Jack Thompson is a dick.
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[07 Oct 2005|04:06pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

hey mouse you still got my windows xp cds or did i take them back from you?
need those sonsuvbitches so i can reinstall xp.

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What the fuck is the Internet? [28 Sep 2005|11:30pm]
[ mood | blank ]

well i haven't update this sunabitch in a while now have i?
man going back and reading all my shit makes me sound all emo...eeew.
well thats all i really have to say, not much going on at the moment.
hmmm maybe i should start feeding my digg rss feed here...nah to much work.
ok thats all for now, have fun yall.
no time for love, dr jones.

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[22 Aug 2005|11:14pm]
wow windows vista is even more disappointing then i thought, it really is like service pack 3...well more like 2.5 for xp. whats worse is that the installation is even more boring then xp, at least during the xp install i can play solitaire.
at least its faster then xp, but not by much. searching for files was still sluggish but not worth it. shutting down took like 2 min tho so thats not to good. whats really bad is that theres no driver for my NIC so i cnat even use IE7 of even see if i can install firefox.
well longhorn is bullshit thas for sure.

back to my anime watching.
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[20 Aug 2005|01:00am]
sigh i guess i better put this to rest once and for all.
sybic is dead.
i pretty sure the main people that poke at me to make a new comics will read this little space on the interweb every once in a while...you know who you bastards are ::shakes fist::
i will not be updating it any more, ever. deal with it.
bitch all you want, you have a right to do that, but that doesn't mean it will change my mind.
 i just felt like i should probly just let yall know to stop trying and move on.

i have my reasons for this decision, and i may or may not share them...i dunno.

thats it for now. im off to watch some anime and sleep. bye.
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[07 Jul 2005|04:51pm]
i seam to get agreer and bitter..er? well you get the picture. im begin to be a very sizable ball of hate and the weird part is that i don't really mind.
ive given up on trying to make my self happy im just gona stop trying to figure out what i want, ill stop trying to make a new mask to hide behind and just let this one fall apart... maybe then ill finally see who i am...
every so often i see glimpses of me...
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feelgood [02 Jun 2005|01:17am]
[ mood | gloomy ]

well if it isnt just like me to just find something to drive me nuts...
I aint happy, im felling glad...well not really glad...

cant help but feel like im being ignored, maybe its just all in my head, maybe its not.
I guess with age comes change, and with change comes pain...to quote toyrus, I dont want to grow up... I miss the old day but those days are long gone.
heh its funny how im so often reminded of how detached from society ive become, I dotn have much incommon with coworkers or class mates... I see spending hundreds of dollars on a car as kinda unnecessary, yet I see not problem in spending the same amount on a computer that can run the latest game at 1600x1200 with 4xAA...I guess to each his own and to me a new graphics card.
I cant shake that feeling, maybe its the fact that we've become more of pen pals then actual friends, maybe its the fact that im just a big stupid head.
funny how getting over something is easy when you know you have no option but to do it. I think im going mad, talking to my self, talking to stuffed monkeys and other assorted animals...maybe thats why I play somuch halo 2, gives me something to preoccupied my brain with so that I dont have to think about all this other shit.
I dont like thinking. thinking leads to fear. fear leads to anger, anger leads to hate, hate leads to suffering...well im my case its kinda goes thinking strait in to suffering and then to some trait halo pwnedness...fallowed by a kookie...or pie...
using comedy as a defense mechanisms I guess only works if your good at it, sucks for me and the fools that read this, assuming people read my shit.
I think I shall return to my slaughtering of 13 year on xbox live.

My dreams, they come a kissin` cause I don’t get sleep, no...

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[03 May 2005|12:23pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

it seams history wants to repeat it self.

i dont know if i should let it or fight it.

fuck it.

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[01 Apr 2005|11:17am]
so after all your bitching and death threats i finally updated sybic, go look and be amazed at my golry!! GO!
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dont read unless your totally our of things to do, including stabbing your genitalia with a knife [30 Mar 2005|10:28pm]
[ mood | like not waking up tomorrow ]

I dont know what it is, is it the fact that im sick and full of Nyquil or is it the fact that I really have none to talk to about shit... or is it just that time of the month when my bitchyness meter just gets full.
man I feel like shit, physically and mentally. I usually like being sick but that was only because I had nothing to do, now I have school and fucking work. I have a new found respect for people that pull it off while going to a regular college where you actually do more then draw for hours on end, classes where you have reading, writing and other shit like that. but its not that I have no free time or that I have to much to do, I have enough to do and I have plenty of free time...its just that the free time is spent alone. I would say that I spend a good 70% of my time alone, talking to my self... like now. (hello self! -me)
yeah so in some ways I think I might be slowly growing more and more insane and depressed from the loneliness, aswell as the lack of anykind of emotional expression either through art or simple putting together of word and thing...whats that called...damn it...oh yeah! talking! there we go, I knew I think of it eventually... my brain is slowly but surely...heh heh surely...dying a very very pathetic death.
sigh, im such a dependent fool its not even funny...well yeah it is kinda funny but its the sad pathetic kind of funny. I think I just need a good cry or something, I havent had one of those since I hit my head on the edge of my desk and that was like weeks ago.... hmmm I think ill stop this now, im getting kinda depressed and shit... i guess listening to portishead and reading JTHM doesnt really help now does it.

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wow thats like a fifth of my life [05 Mar 2005|11:50pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

Four down, who know how many more to go. Crazy. And I'm just starting to get over it.

I wish we had a lot more talks like we did today. I enjoyed listening to her talk; I could have sat there for hours on end just talking with her. I don't know why but it's only when it's me and her that we actually talk, when were with others I'm just annoying and...well annoying. sigh. damn balws making me sleepy! that's not how they're suppose to work damn it! Maybe it means I should drink more ^_^

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